Dec 9, 2008

Empty Cradle




November 30 - My Doctor confirmed that I was pregnant. I had easy pregnancies before and this one would be of no difference, or so I thought.

December 2 - I bled heavily. While I was being rushed to the ER, the blood gushed like hell. I told myself I'm not losing my baby, it's just blood, no pain... not even slight cramps. I wasn't giddy at all and I was very conscious. I know my little one was holding on to his dear life and I was more than determined to keep him. There's no way I'm letting go. My mind was very clear and my body was able, I was fear-free, I know my baby and I will get through this together. But the bleeding won't stop. I felt helpless as I look at my pants soaking with blood. At the hospital's ER, I felt blood clots coming out and I knew what that meant. Two kinds of ultrasound equipment were used to confirm my fear, I lost my baby and I couldn't do anything about it. Sadly, miscarriage is something you cannot stop once it occurred and I know no one is to be blamed. We have been blessed with 2 children but that doesn't make it any easier to let go. However, I know my little one is now peacefully resting in God's loving arms.



To my unborn baby,

I'm sorry we didn't even have a chance to touch you and hold you in our arms or kiss you. It broke our hearts to lose you... but we know God called you that day, He called you home. We'd love to have you here with us yet I know you're now sleeping in Heaven's nursery.

You're gone but not forgotten. You left too soon but you will forever stay in our hearts, my little angel.

We love you,
Daddy, Mommy, Kuya Reign and Ate Shine




"Some people only dream of angels, I had one in my womb."

17 comments:

chubskulit said...

Oh dear, I am so sorry for your loss.. You're right though she/he is now resting in God's place..

Because you are an amazing Mommy, I have an award for you...

misty said...

I'm sorry to know this Maya, may God bless you and family!

Aian said...

oh...
that's sad...

=(

Aian said...

i really like babies and I really feel sad when things like that happen...

paperdoll said...

sorry te maya. . hindi co alam pano co makakatulong para pagaanin ang loob mo. . wala acong ibang masabe. nalungkot din aco talaga. .

JoShMaRie said...

aw...:(

ghie said...

sorry to hear this... my deepest sympathy...pati tuloy ako naiyak na dito.
i know how you're strong and being a great mom and wife! i know your baby is peacefully happy and very proud of you!
God Bless you more and your family.
love you!

Pamela Plumley said...

Yes, she is in heaven. I had a miscarriage in 1994, but in 1999, at the age of 39, I got pregnant and had a beautiful girl who is now nearly 9! So, don't give up-I didn't and it pays to have faith as you do.

Sreisaat said...

Maya, so sorry to hear about this. I feel for you and pray that God give you and your family strength to deal with your loss. Don't give up. Have faith.

Akina Bukolmo said...

No words can alleviate the loss and pain your feeling right now.

You're strong, you'll get through this.

God bless you always and keep in mind that has a lot in store for you.

kcatwoman said...

that's very touching..

Anna Monique ♥ said...

Ate Maya. *hugs* May angel ka pa naman jan (2 kids), at may darating pa.

Happy holidays.

Shirgie said...

Hi Maya, naku....teary-eyed ako..hehehe...don't worry, kasama nyo naman sya always, she/he is your angel....sorry to hear that

M A Y A said...

salamat sa inyo... :)

PaJAY said...

am so Sori..

medyo late na'tong comment ko and i know na mahirap lampasan ang mga ganito coz naranasan ko na rin to sa pamangkin ko...but i hope ul recover the soonest possible time...You still have your kidz to fill the emptiness...GODBLESS...

Maus said...

ohhh sori maya
bakit now ko lng ito nabasa...
sorry for that...

Ilocana said...

So sorry for your loss Maya. My thoughts are with you kabsat..