November 30 - My Doctor confirmed that I was pregnant. I had easy pregnancies before and this one would be of no difference, or so I thought.
December 2 - I bled heavily. While I was being rushed to the ER, the blood gushed like hell. I told myself I'm not losing my baby, it's just blood, no pain... not even slight cramps. I wasn't giddy at all and I was very conscious. I know my little one was holding on to his dear life and I was more than determined to keep him. There's no way I'm letting go. My mind was very clear and my body was able, I was fear-free, I know my baby and I will get through this together. But the bleeding won't stop. I felt helpless as I look at my pants soaking with blood. At the hospital's ER, I felt blood clots coming out and I knew what that meant. Two kinds of ultrasound equipment were used to confirm my fear, I lost my baby and I couldn't do anything about it. Sadly, miscarriage is something you cannot stop once it occurred and I know no one is to be blamed. We have been blessed with 2 children but that doesn't make it any easier to let go. However, I know my little one is now peacefully resting in God's loving arms.
To my unborn baby,
I'm sorry we didn't even have a chance to touch you and hold you in our arms or kiss you. It broke our hearts to lose you... but we know God called you that day, He called you home. We'd love to have you here with us yet I know you're now sleeping in Heaven's nursery.
You're gone but not forgotten. You left too soon but you will forever stay in our hearts, my little angel.
We love you,
Daddy, Mommy, Kuya Reign and Ate Shine
"Some people only dream of angels, I had one in my womb."
Dec 9, 2008
Posted by M A Y A at 11:33 AM